Today we were due for 2nd “ovulation scan”. We are now in the second part of the IVF, following the “down regulation” which means my natural cycle was turned into temporary menopause (ca. 2 weeks). The first part involved a daily injection of buserelin and even though Chris put his entire gentleness and love into administering it, there was nothing pleasant about it. I m good with pain and needles, and to be honest, the first two days I thought “it’s easy, I can do it”. I can do it, but it is not that easy. I work full time so the morning nausea caused by the drug made my journey to work really uncomfortable. My anxieties about my mum (complete with nightmares) rose to sky-high levels and I felt like a nervous wreck. I lost focus at work. This is on top of various digestion problems which I am not able to fix with a whole range of various pills because everyday I’ve got a different issue…Luckily, now we are only on half the dosage of buserelin, but we’ve got additional injection in the evening (gonal f). This one makes my follicles grow faster.
At the first ovulation scan I was overjoyed: my body produced 22 follicles! Like a garden of Eden. But today the doctor said that there are additional ones which means I m at a serious risk of over-stimulation which can be dangerous and brings a new set of side effects… So for the time being my gonal-f injection dose is minimal and my follicles are not getting bigger.
The ovulation scans take place every second day. I was lucky the first fell on Bank Holiday so didn’t have to take time off work. The second one was early in the morning so at work I could simply say that I’ve had a GP appointment; and for the next one I’ve arranged a “working from home” day under a false pretence of fixing a boiler. I don’t have any other excuses ready for next scans. I cannot tell my manager that I’m going through IVF – I’m not really sick in the strict sense of the word… Besides, she is new and so I don’t know her at all, I’ve got no idea how she would react. I like my job and I am good at it, I don’t want to jeopardise my career before I even have a kid. When I’ll have the kid, then I am pretty sure my career will get a hit anyway, no matter how good I am at my job.